Today was a ridiculously unproductive day. I didn’t go to a single class because I was competing in a writing competetion in which I was required to team up with a bunch of other people and co-write a 4,000 word book in a day, which went okay but not brilliantly. The lack of class would usually make me happy, but right now I’m just stressed about catching up, especially because I’m really, really bogged down with stuff right now, I’m sick, and just… yeah, stressy day today.

I barely got any homework done tonight at all. That’s a lie, I did none. I just couldn’t bring myself to. I felt sick and stressed and had a colossal nosebleed that just left me feeling faint, and the last thing I wanted to do was difficult homework.

Urgh. I was just so disgusted at myself for not working that I went and did a maths test. It’s not much, but at least I did something. I think I’ll go to bed early tonight. It’s 8.55 now – I plan to be showered and in bed by 9.30. Which means getting myself offline at 9.20. It’s happening. I’m so sick of procrastinating late into the night. I’m so sick of not doing homework and then being really stressed out about it. I’m just so sick of so many things I do at the moment.

I’m having one of those random crisis days. I really want to change. But wanting to change isn’t going to help my situation. I need to get myself well again so that I can change all of these things that just have me sitting here on the internet whining away about not liking stuff I do. So I’ll start by going to be early. And hopefully, wellness will follow, and bring the rest with it.

Short, short blog tonight. I apologize, but then again, nobody is reading this, and it’s so whiny and crappy that ending is probably a relief. I’ll catch you all on the flipside.